On March 31st, 2017 our family’s lives were changed forever; the day we discovered Devin was missing.
My son Devin Bond, age 16 at the time of his disappearance, went missing in the early morning of March 31st, 2017, we have one possible sighting that morning of a boy walking down the road that matches Devin description and Devin’s phone pings. That is the last time anyone has seen Devin that has been reported to our family or law enforcement.
In the beginning, everyone told me that Devin would show up and to try to stay calm. I can remember telling family and friends that I didn’t think it was going to be easy to find Devin, but I never imagined after two years we would still not have answers about what happened to Devin on March 31st, 2017. The morning Devin disappeared, every action Devin did that morning was out of character for him, nothing he did that morning made any sense to us, and left us with many questions.
For the last two years, we have been searching for Devin and searching for answers to what happened that morning. We will never give up on our search for Devin, we will find him, even if it takes the rest of my life. At moments I feel like stepping back, taking a break from our search, its mentally and physically challenging to keep searching for a missing child, people are not made to endure this type of pain for this long. A parent of a missing child is in an endless loop of grief and breaking free of that loop to try to move to the next steps of grief is almost impossible. You have no answers, and you don’t know what happened, how do you grieve and heal if you don’t know what you are grieving or healing from, you are forever stuck in that loop until you find answers. But something inside me tells me to keep going in our search, to try a few more things to find Devin, he is out there somewhere waiting to be found.
The last two years for me and my family have been painful and a constant struggle but we have never lost hope, hope keeps us going. Hope we will find Devin and the answers we search for every day will come in time. We need to have patience, keep spreading Devin’s story and never give up on Devin.
I have no words to describe what we have endured for the past two years. If I had the words, I think people would move Heaven and Earth to help find all missing people. Living one day in the head of a parent with a missing child would probably break some people. It’s almost broke me but the love I have for Devin, my son, helps me to keep fighting. I know I am Devin’s voice in his search; I am the voice that reminds people that Devin matters, he is loved and is greatly missed by his family and friends. I never have a day when I don’t think about Devin’s disappearance, it’s the first thing I think about when I wake and the last thing on my mind when I go to sleep at night. This is our new normal, and our family was changed forever in one day. I am always thinking I am one person away from finding Devin, I need to reach that one person, find a way to reach them and still believing it will happen.
Devin turned 18 in December, it changes our search and changes many people’s view of our family searching for Devin. Many think he doesn’t want to be found and he has that right. Those people may be right, but Devin’s family at the very least deserve to know he is safe somewhere, he went missing when he was still a child. If you are a parent, you will understand that when a child turns a certain age on a day, it doesn’t magically make them not our child, they are forever our child no matter their age. All we want to know is that our child, Devin Bond is safe; I need to know that as a mother.
You are loved by your family. Daddy, Dylan and I think of you all the time and talk about you all the time. We all want to hear your voice again, see your beautiful smile and to hug you. Our door is always open, and you always have a home with us. We are waiting for you to come home, reach out to someone to tell them you are safe, anything. We will never give up on you, you don’t give up on people you love. I would do anything to hear your voice again and see your face, please come home. We love you more than you will ever know and I will never stop loving you.
Love you always and forever,
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